you shouldn't have worn that shirt
with your back exposed
for me to see
can you feel my eyes on you?
running up your smooth skin
from your waistband up to your neck
where your silky locks fall
can you feel my fingers on you?
climbing the curves of your spine
up to the roots of your hair
tangling and pulling
till you tilt your head back
can you feel my breath on you?
behind your pierced ear
where you put a loose strand
and i follow it down
can you feel my lips on you?
trembling against your earlobe
whispering without a sound
that you got me wishing you could
melt under my touch and give in
let me do it all for real
but you can't feel a t
so they say suicides go to hell
hope I won’t meet you there...
you’re perfect, you always know best,
you’re virtuous, good, like a saint,
people like that ain’t going to hell.
seems I won’t meet you there.
I was supposed to be strong, I was
but it was over when I realised
you were the strength I lack
false strength, a violent force
that kept me under control
pulling me in like a rising tide
to the warmth I craved so much
pushing me off to run and hide
away from inevitable crush
you’d crush my heart for the lofty ideals
make an offering from my pain and sorrow
treating me like a property of yours
who has
When did I become a piece of dust?
Held by cheap glue broken glass
Trapped with no escape route
That little something that held me up
Vanished before my unseeing eyes
I'm tripping over my foot
I'm putting on a brave face
But the strength is no longer there
Melting into the world that ain't need me
No matter what it'll keep spinning
With or without my existence
No matter how many times I say this
It just keeps going unnoticed
So I will keep my distance
Nowhere is where I belong
The place I shall call home
keep away from that person, she said.
no good, no good at all,
has nothing for you in mind
trouble, playing with fire,
you will burn, you will cry
I looked at her, avoiding the eyes
who was she talking about?
wasn’t that person there, right behind?
wasn’t that me, not listening at all?
I got it all mixed up.
in dark whirlpool, drifting away
to the heartbeat that woke me up
so real it was, so tangible
pulling me in, entangling
I got swallowed up